mind games

If I walk away, I'm scared I won't find other muses. 

I find myself alone in the world I've created again. Reaching out to help others, but never letting them in. 

I'm inclined to love, unaware of who I'm bringing inside myself. So ambitious for a small girl with pink hair. 

I feed others with inspiration and kind words, but my own soul is starving. I am to please, blind to the fact that I am displeasing myself. 

The artist seeks to be alone, an introvert in every conceivable idiosyncrasy. 

To lack sincerity about the reason you are doing something, is only doing yourself a disservice. 

Go inside yourself, and be alone there. Find out who you are, and what you really want. 

Because that is the only way I know. 

x  x 

playboy panties by Fleur De Mal

photos by Averie Cole

SHIMMER SCRUB

Calling all mega babes: frank body’s new Shimmer Scrub was released today, and it’s the answer to your disco beauty, no pants-party dreams. It's super magical, especially for a pink-haired unicorn like myself.

It's hyper-moisturizing, with grapeseed oil and Vitamin E. You'll notice it upon first touch. It's still a coffee scrub like its cult-favorite Original Coffee Scrub, but this limited edition baby also features shiny tiny gold and silver particles with electrical properties. Just the way a highlighter works to make your face glow, Shimmer Scrub does that for your skin. 

If you'd like to give it a whirl, you can purchase here. 

xx 

SAINT BLONDE

I feel the sky just split, the girl that I am and the girl that I used to be. 

In time, I will be stronger and you will be happy. My story will be my own, no contributing artists. 

Was I just a number to you? Time heals the heart, but dreams keep the memories alive.

I cracked under the loss of you, turned to all kinds of bad habits. Still chasing the independence I had before any lover of mine wanted to own me. It feels like running backwards, but I know the mind is a romantic. 

Love me rough. I'll be there soon. It's enough for me just know you and I exist in this moment. 

There is always something left. 

x   x

rings by Vera Meat

suit by Saint Laurent

photos by Emily Davis

upstate getaway

My love and I escaped to a cabin upstate for the weekend. We brought along two of our friends who were just married last year. The four of us had a really beautiful time - cooking, taking photographs, and drinking wine. 

We stayed at the most beautiful house where the sun soaked the entire place. There was also an incredible roof where we could star gaze at night. We went for a beautiful hike, saw a waterfall, and I did a run in the rain. 

The second day we were there my allergies kicked in like terrible, giving way to some pretty bad anxiety. I was really upset for a couple hours, exhausted and my stomach hurt. Truth be told, I just envisioned everything so differently. I wanted to finish and entire book, meditate and connected with God. But looking back now, everything happened exactly as it should of. My momentary bouts with anxiety only give way to a better and stronger person. Our suffering only serves help us better understand the suffering of others. 

I've been wanting to be a better person lately, for myself, for my partner, for my friends. But sometimes you stop and realize you're just doing the best you can in that given moment. And that's all anyone can ever ask of you, that's really all you can ask of yourself. 

xx 

abbey swimsuit top by Mandalynn Swim

sunglasses by Zero UV

crop top and sabbath mug by Gypsy Warrior

saving pepperland bra by Save The Parade 1969

4/20 Style Guide

4/20 is one of the most important holidays of the year. One must dress appropriately, and celebrate this sacred day. 

This post includes outfit suggestions for your holiday attire and links to shop are below. 

Bless you on this beautiful day.

xx 

weed leggings by Yandy

pink leaf pastys in bubblegum by Yandy

mary jane pot leaf stickers by Yandy

pink weed bralette set by Yandy

"going steady with a factory girl"

She wanted to make her own world, start a revolution from her bedroom. Apartment like Breakfast at Tiffany's, closet full of clothes like Edie Sedgwick. All of her dresses with the tags still on them, wild imagination. 

You get up to leave from your side of the bed, it's morning in New York. Summer is coming, and we can feel it. We shift the art we make, the notes become softer, the paintings become pastel. 

Books stacked to the ceiling, I'm living in a movie. I think we're superstars, and you're becoming my best friend. You teach me to play music, and I teach you to play dress up. 

I know you want to build a world much like my own, we both came here to make things. I don't bother with other people, but you can't get enough of them. You tell me that I shouldn't be so hard on myself, and I agree. 

People are afraid of themselves nowadays. The realm of possibility is always expanding, and I try to not let my fears keep me from a revolution. You say I'm a renaissance artist. I've never really swallowed what other people told me - my only passions are books and music. 

I'm not attached to anything, I'd just like to spend my life creating. 

xx 

pink hair + coffee

Here's a look from my morning coffee run. Sometimes when I'm in a rush but still want to look cute, I'll go to a pair of plain black denim with a statement jacket and bag. Sometimes, I like having my clothing simple and then mixing in cool accessories. 

And of course, some bomb day-old sex hair + big sunglasses. 

xx 

jacket by Nasty Gal

belt by Nasty Gal

bag by YSL

sunglasses by Elizabeth and James

jeans by Citizens of Humanity

bond street

If you follow me on instagram, you know I'm obsessed with this dress. It's by for Love and Lemons and fits like a dream! I love the sleeves and floral detail, basically everything about it. 

Modern Vice also just gifted me this amazing white stud booties, and they're perfect for spring. I'm not huge on sandals or opened toed shoes, so these are a nice compromise for me. 

My hat is by Rag and Bone, and I think it's the perfect spring hat. It goes with dresses, as well as denim and blazer looks. 

Excited to bring you more spring looks! 

all my love,

xx 

dress by For Love & Lemons

panama hat by Rag & Bone

shoes by Modern Vice

love test

Baby's leaving New York for a summer of festivals. She spent winter locked away, high up in her Soho loft, making art and making music.

She's ready to share everything's she's learned with everyone else - so many books about love and the solar system. So many hours spent inside her own head, digesting politics through comic release. Forgetting last summer's lovers through chords and sounds. 

All of her dresses with the tags still on them. She's throwing kimonos and feathers in a vintage pink suitcase. She's bringing sunglasses and little leather dresses. Vintage bustiers and flower-detailed lingerie. Bell bottoms and baby's guitars. She's ready to not have a home for a little while. To stay up late under desert stars, and write poems on june mornings. 

Pretending it will get better with you not around. He asks her where's she going. It's a love test. 

You know you're living when it all becomes a blur. It's always been that way it seems, one love begins and another one comes undone. 

xx 

deluxe pink feather robe by Yandy

faux leather mini dress with gold belt by Yandy

ivory elegant bustier by Yandy

delicate black lace robe by Yandy

black elegant bra and garter set by Yandy

photos by Kristin Gallegos

springtime in soho

I'm super excited to finally put together some spring looks. I feel like I've been hiding from winter inside my apartment - reading books and painting. I'm inspired to shoot some street style now! 

I've been really into Elizabeth and James lately, especially their accessories. My pink suede bag is by them and is actually on sale now (sadly I bought it prior to that, ugh!) 

I'm also super into Marc Jacobs this season. I think his collection is just wonderful, and I just had to grab these white booties. I think I might get the glitter ones next. 

My suede moto jacket is from Nasty Gal and the dress is of course by For Love & Lemons. You can also shop these sunglasses on Zero UV, I'll be styling a lot of their products into my looks this spring! 

xx 

pink suede bag by Elizabeth and James

white chelsea boot by Marc Jacobs

sunglasses by Zero UV