you chase after distractions with all this vigor. you take in books half-heartedly, always one foot out the door, willingly ready to attend to pleasure. you lack discipline and conviction, but you’ve got enough of it to move forward. you chase lovers when you should be chasing yourself. you’re wild and everyone can see it, there’s no hiding here.
you are compelled forward by your interests, they will move you to new heights that now remain inconceivable. emotions track our progress towards goals, when you’re not feeling strong it is because you are lacking, not because you are a victim. do not fight a battle that is not there. remain free of problems that do not exist. when you double down on discomfort, it starts to look a lot like confidence.
plan a life you’d like to have, i’ve been making mine for a while now.
disco breakfast and acid tapes. fried eggs and lingerie. champagne-infused afternoons and cowboy boots. cigarettes after sex and your boyfriend’s cowboy hat.
everything is slow moving magic on the lower east side and nothing hurts. you shift with the music, you go with the night. pizza and frizzy blonde hair the rain.
i love living in new york, i want to ride the balance of chaos and order forever.
photos by Jen Senn
A month ago, I came across a friend who had recently posted about Joanna Vargas and her facials in New York City. I took a chance, and reached out to the brand via instagram. They replied immediately, and were kind enough to invite me in for a facial. I received the oxygen facial to help hydrate my dry skin, and it left me feeling incredible. (you can read about the facials they offer here.)
During the facial, I mentioned how I had been running outside, training for the marathon, and I suddenly was getting a lot of blackheads and acne. The esthetician believed it was a combination of pollution an sweat, (i usually run down the west side highway!) So they sent me home with the exfoliating mask. (pictured above!)
I have never had a product that changed so much for me in so little time, I’m wayward with skin products and can never stick to one thing. But I started using the mask, both as a scrub and a leave on treatment, and saw my blackheads clear up overnight.
I have dry skin, so it’s gentle enough that it wasn’t dehydrating me the way a lot of products do. I’m constantly looking for something new, because everything drains my skin of moisture. Joanna’s exfoliating mask is golden and soft to the touch.
If you follow me, you know I don’t usually promote skin care products, but this was something that I really wanted to share. I love the results and I’m happy with my soft and clear skin!
Had the best week with the Revolve fam! I loved sporting all the new looks for fall all over my city. Below are the links to shop all the pieces I selected for the week!
Sending you guys so much love.
the hanna blazer by l’academie
blue mini fur jacket by revolve
white turtleneck sweater by tularose
the jean skort by l’academie
pink leopard faux fur coat by house of harlow
valencia sweater by LPA
cream aries dress by house of harlow
diana duster by revolve x chrissy tegan
i have met people who say they are artists, but they are unconvincing.
they’ve made no great sacrifice in their life, they have suffered little for what they say they love deeply.
me, i have torn my life apart. i have shredded everything to start new, i have sacrificed greatly because i love grandly. i am passion, fever does not settle in me. it rises, stirs, and surfaces from my fingertips. i am moved by night, the sounds the streets make when they think no one is watching.
i have my own world, and it’s quite uninterested in the opinion of others. it moves in its own shapes, bound not by time and space.
here we have an artist, who lived and died, fervently by her passions. they took her in the night, and she went willingly with their tide.
mrs robinson black lingerie set by honey birdette
red lingerie set by honey birdette
silk bralette by angie bauer
the birthplace of thought is the dream. a fantasy about what might be. sun-soaked and holiday bound. summer slips into a place of reveries, and the cold air sticks to your fingers without your consent.
you close your eyes to get stronger in the places you are afraid. there’s real promise in standing in the settings you fear most, you become indestructible in those places. you conquer it in your mind before you every bring it into the physical.
and when it finally gets here, you are stronger in the broken places.
lovers part. you close your eyes to see what it’s done.
you wait for the remedy- the meaning of everything to come crashing into your consciousness, but no answers make themselves apparent, and you are left colder than before.
you live like this, veiled in a delicate world, and you believe you are living. then one person comes along, and saves you from your idea of life.
you are a fool, but you are awake now. you hear music differently, you see nature in an entirely new way, you read more great books - nothing is the same. the beauty that they bring, illumination.
you’re not the one to talk things through, and life breaks you both. life is suffering after all, that is indisputable. you feel used, but you know more now.
you see that responsibility and love give life meaning. you act as if being is good. you are broken, but you still see the goodness.
it has been said, that making happiness the focal point of your life trivializes your experiences. because in order to regard anything as truly important you must regard its loss as truly meaningful. to open yourself up to experiences of deep meaning also means you have to open yourself up to the possibility of deep hurt and sorrow.
you are not the master of your own house, and all suffering will only serve expansion.
photos by gareth lewis