sugar baby

"Sugar baby playing in the Hamptons and listening to Steve Miller band in the sunshine" 

 Come on in my kitchen, playground love and tall socks. Be the baby and share some sugar. Summer vibes and white light coming in through all directions. We took to the hamptons like two brooklyn babies. It's always an adventure with you, sneaking into backyards and slipping onto the oceanside. Long walks and horchata. Easy evenings and pink sunsets. 

It's summer in New York. 

<3 

ice cream socks by Chrissy's Socks

flower socks by Chrissy's Socks

photos by Phillip Van Nostrand

I Hate Blonde X American Express

"Hanging at American Express X Alexander Wang event at Milk Studios"

Here are a few snaps from the American Express X Alexander Wang event at Milk Studios. It was so beautiful to watch the sunset from the Milk Penthouse, there's nothing like that city view and the way the evening light fills the room. Alexander Wang designed an amazing dress out of 15,000 American Express gold cards. The piece is simply stunning. He's such an artist. 

photos by Phillip Van Nostrand

Golden Birthday

Turning 24 was golden in NYC 

On June 24th, I turned 24 years old. My golden birthday. For the first time ever, I literally had not one photo from the night on my phone. Jen and I went right from shooting an editorial (soon to come) all day right into party mode. Actually, I think I had a bottle of champagne before the party arrived. Coupled with forgetting to eat for the day, and I was drunk by sunset. 

I wish I had remember to document more, do more picture and snap worthy things, but it also says something. It says I was having too much fun in the moment to actually care about documenting it. So, so many of my friends came through that night, and that really meant the world to me. I was in and out of the bubble bath all night, and ordering room service fries up every half hour. I was told by my friends that I was drinking out of both the Rose bottle, and the Tequila bottle. Whatever... haha. 

This second year of my life in NYC has been even more amazing than the first. Although I went through a hard time and some heartbreak, it's really proven to be for the best. I feel like I'm living so much every day, surrounded by so many people and so many things to do. I know this upcoming year is going to be the biggest for my blog and work yet. I'm going to be traveling more than I ever thought possible. I am so grateful for every opportunity, and the hard work, and all the playtime. 

There is no place I'd rather be.

x x

photos by We Good Looking

Friday Nights at Hotel Chantelle

There's nothing like a summer night on the rooftop at Hotel Chantelle. 

One of my best friends from childhood flew in to NYC for a wild weekend. I continued my birthday celebrations on Friday night with having all my friends come out to Hotel Chantelle for a night of polaroids, dancing and drinks on the rooftop. 

It was so fun to just be silly and enjoy the warm weather and snap really fun photos. It's pretty hard taking polaroids in the dark, but we did our best and had an amazing night. We stayed out dancing until 5 AM and Hannah and I ended up heading home as the sun was rising. 

It's pretty great to have weekends like this after such a busy travel schedule (that I'll have to be going back to soon.) If you're looking for a good place to go out/ get dinner in NYC, you know what I recommend now ; ) 

Mother

"give me love, or leave me alone" 

I keep it down in my heart, and I keep on moving along. Give me love or leave me alone. 

There's a few things we have to burn. Set our hearts ablaze. The skyline burned in reds I've never known. 

Lord, wont you leave me? Leave me just like this, cause I belong to the ground now. I want no more than this. Can you protect me from what I want the most? The love I let in. 

When the sun hit the earth, I left this place. I went up so high that it was impossible to fall, although I thought about falling the entire time. Some things you let go in order to live. 

So much time on the other-side, waiting for you wake up. Maybe I'll see you in another life, if this one wasn't enough.  

dress by For Love + Lemons

photos by Darien Maginn

Lord Pretty Flacko Jodye 2

"see they runnin' with my old style" 

"Who the baby blonde with the gold links? Got me reminiscin' 'bout my old days. Boomin' out the trap through the hallway. Tell me what you bitches know about, Auntie sayin' turn it down, or she finna call the cops. We be plottin' on the ops, she the one who got the drop. 

They gon' take me back to my old ways. Now I gotta let 'em know who's really trill. Bitches talk down every now and then, but who gave em' style 9 times out of 10?" 

happy friday bitches, get lit tonight 

x x 

tee + sweatpants by Civil Clothing

photos by Phillip Nostrand

DEATH 2 FUCKBOIZ

"I only call you when it's half past five, the only time that I'll be by your side." 

Your man on the road, he doin' promo. You said, "Keep our business on the low-low." I'm just tryna get you out the friend zone, cause you look even better that the photos. 

I only call you when it's half past five. The only time that I'll be by your side. I only love it when you touch me, not feel me. When I'm fucked up, that's the real me. 

death to fuckboys crop tee by Chi Flo

photos by Phillip Van Nostrand

all i need

"All I need to feel happiness is to be completely cut open." 

All I need to feel happiness is to be vulnerable. To be completely cut open. To be able, at any moment, to sacrifice who I am for who I will become.

There's something much bigger going on here. Bigger than you and me. 

And whatever it is, makes me feel powerful beyond belief. The selfless ability to wear my heart wide open everyday. To let everything in and feel it so completely. I have been swallowed whole, but I never stay in the belly of the beast. 

My heartbeat matches the beat of the universe and I can't help but find it all so incredibly worth it. 

Yet despite how open, peaceful and loving you attempt to be, people can only meet you as deeply as they've met themselves. 

x x 

druzy stone cuff in clear by Sparkles & Pop

dual druzy pendants necklace (clear) by Sparkles & Pop

dual druzy pendants necklace (black) by Sparkles & Pop

Metal Collar in Gold by Sparkles & Pop

Crescent Moon Midi Ring by Sparkles & Pop

Octagon Midi Ring Set by Sparkles & Pop

photos by Noel McGrath

now's the only time i know

"Walking out into the sea. What's forsaken, I do not need." 

Bright blonde hair and eyelash. Reappear, in a flash. There is more I'd like to know.

Walking upon the shores, I have been here many times before. It would be too easy to say I feel invisible. But I am the same as the sands and the sea. 

The day breaks in my heart. Sitting upon the shore, I burn sage and palo santo. I remember souls past. The day was so long. Spirit walks. I cover my hands with drawings and my chest with crystals. Maybe I will dream again. 

6:15, then I'm gone. Quiet walk into the sea. Through the waters, through the sands. 

Now's the only time I know. 

photos by Gina Frey

NBD X I Hate Blonde

Summertime champagne at Cafe Colette.

Thanks to my friends at Lovers + Friends LA, I was sent a few pieces from their sister line, NBD. A lot of you have been asking on my instagram and my last blog post where this red jacket is from. Well, here you go, it's from NBD. 

I've been wearing this romper so much, as well as the jacket (obviously.) They're really nicely made pieces that can be casual or dressed up. The biker jacket is good for summer nights or cooler summer days in the Hamptons. 

You can shop the looks directly below on Revolve! 

x x 

red moto jacket by NBD

peach romper by NBD

photos by Christina Emilie