crush

i wish i woke up every day feeling this strange. the divine connection to this obscure artist that turns out to be you. there is no dissonance between who you want to be and who you are. when you look in the magazines, you don’t see yourself or anyone you’d like to be. you’ve come more full circle than that. you’ve crossed the divide of who you are and who you are becoming.

sonder daughter in love. make up your mind. “is it him or me,” he says. i apologize. my intentions were golden, meant for the skies. perhaps, my lofty ambitions cut me at the ankles again. broken but building, don’t you know i thrive in this state of mind. i rewrite and relive the same story over and over again because it fuels me.

everything feels new, but it has felt new once before.

xx

chulahoma

my mind is ramblin’, these demons walk free. dreams of music and fire in my mind. why can’t trouble find a new friend. shaking dreams from my hair and wearing cowboy boots all over lower manhattan.

it’s about to be a wild winter

xx

photos by jen senn

RAINBOW BRIGHT

Got to rock some of the newest looks from dolls kill dELiA*s collection! You can shop the pieces I’m wearing with the links below!

Love to all my little rainbow brights!

xx

rainbow skirt by dolls kill

flower baby crop tee by dolls kill

mini fuzzy cross body bag by dolls kill

new york on film

new york on film, no edits, just the way i see life here.

xx

photos by sean zhao

came right back

you chase after distractions with all this vigor. you take in books half-heartedly, always one foot out the door, willingly ready to attend to pleasure. you lack discipline and conviction, but you’ve got enough of it to move forward. you chase lovers when you should be chasing yourself. you’re wild and everyone can see it, there’s no hiding here.

you are compelled forward by your interests, they will move you to new heights that now remain inconceivable. emotions track our progress towards goals, when you’re not feeling strong it is because you are lacking, not because you are a victim. do not fight a battle that is not there. remain free of problems that do not exist. when you double down on discomfort, it starts to look a lot like confidence.

plan a life you’d like to have, i’ve been making mine for a while now.

xx

acid tapes

disco breakfast and acid tapes. fried eggs and lingerie. champagne-infused afternoons and cowboy boots. cigarettes after sex and your boyfriend’s cowboy hat.

everything is slow moving magic on the lower east side and nothing hurts. you shift with the music, you go with the night. pizza and frizzy blonde hair the rain.

i love living in new york, i want to ride the balance of chaos and order forever.

xx

photos by Jen Senn

my favorite exfoliator - joanna vargas

A month ago, I came across a friend who had recently posted about Joanna Vargas and her facials in New York City. I took a chance, and reached out to the brand via instagram. They replied immediately, and were kind enough to invite me in for a facial. I received the oxygen facial to help hydrate my dry skin, and it left me feeling incredible. (you can read about the facials they offer here.)

During the facial, I mentioned how I had been running outside, training for the marathon, and I suddenly was getting a lot of blackheads and acne. The esthetician believed it was a combination of pollution an sweat, (i usually run down the west side highway!) So they sent me home with the exfoliating mask. (pictured above!)

I have never had a product that changed so much for me in so little time, I’m wayward with skin products and can never stick to one thing. But I started using the mask, both as a scrub and a leave on treatment, and saw my blackheads clear up overnight.

I have dry skin, so it’s gentle enough that it wasn’t dehydrating me the way a lot of products do. I’m constantly looking for something new, because everything drains my skin of moisture. Joanna’s exfoliating mask is golden and soft to the touch.

If you follow me, you know I don’t usually promote skin care products, but this was something that I really wanted to share. I love the results and I’m happy with my soft and clear skin!

xx

get your mask here!

REVOLVE AROUND THE WORLD NEW YORK

Had the best week with the Revolve fam! I loved sporting all the new looks for fall all over my city. Below are the links to shop all the pieces I selected for the week!

Sending you guys so much love.

xo,

r.

the hanna blazer by l’academie

blue mini fur jacket by revolve

white turtleneck sweater by tularose

the jean skort by l’academie

pink leopard faux fur coat by house of harlow

valencia sweater by LPA

cream aries dress by house of harlow

diana duster by revolve x chrissy tegan

the artist's way

i have met people who say they are artists, but they are unconvincing.

they’ve made no great sacrifice in their life, they have suffered little for what they say they love deeply.

me, i have torn my life apart. i have shredded everything to start new, i have sacrificed greatly because i love grandly. i am passion, fever does not settle in me. it rises, stirs, and surfaces from my fingertips. i am moved by night, the sounds the streets make when they think no one is watching.

i have my own world, and it’s quite uninterested in the opinion of others. it moves in its own shapes, bound not by time and space.

here we have an artist, who lived and died, fervently by her passions. they took her in the night, and she went willingly with their tide.

xx

mrs robinson black lingerie set by honey birdette

red lingerie set by honey birdette

silk bralette by angie bauer

serving fall looks

bright blue faux fur jacket from shopbop

baby blue gossip girl dress by house of harlow