She had it. The doe effect. She looked like a deer in photos. She was past the point of trying to look good. She didn't really care.
She tried to take wild self portraits, but she could never see herself quite right. I always had to step in for her, show her how to see herself. She'd sit in front of the mirror, but it was like she just didn't get it. She had compulsion and drive like I had never seen before. Sometimes, I just wished for it all to go away.