A mind is a terrible thing to waste and an ocean is a terrible thing to close your eyes in front of. Vast is the beauty of the world and the human mind. The capacity of the sea is endless and deep, just like the brain. I'd hate to see you lose yours to a few drinks and an obsession.
Inner freedom does not come easily, but it is possible. Mind training is something that must be focused on everyday. In America we do plenty of things everyday to the point of obsession. Tanning, nails, coffee fixes, treadmill running... but training the mind is perhaps the most important daily task we can take on. Is it not the mind that processes the outside world as happiness and depression? pleasure and pain?
Youthful souls are not frightful of being wrong. If you're not prepared to be wrong, you'll never come up with anything original. Mistakes are not the worst thing one can make. Picasso said all children are born artists, the problem is, staying an artist as you grow old.